tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27089084541123934682024-03-12T18:53:55.965-07:00Days in the life of a loserA collection of events, days, and occurrences in the life of a loser.Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-19759848915617445532020-11-20T09:41:00.001-08:002020-11-20T09:41:36.144-08:00United Nations Sex Education Filth, Treason and the Solution Article 61<iframe style="background-image:url(https://i.ytimg.com/vi/SHkrJMFKSFg/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="270" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/SHkrJMFKSFg" frameborder="0"></iframe>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-11226144011796225002018-03-22T15:31:00.000-07:002018-03-22T15:31:23.694-07:00A day in the life of a loser who sold his sole(excerpts)<!--[if !mso]> <style>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I’m doing all the things that I’m not supposed to be doing as usual, I am supposed to be immersed in my studies at the moment, but instead I find it easier to listen to some old blues songs and while away my time (wastefully). This is all inconsequential though for I am happy with the fantasy that I am an unrealised genius and that one day my true potential will be discovered, all be it too late maybe, that is if I haven’t drunk myself to an early grave, but that, bye the bye though is off the point.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Today I feel some deep routed depression for I have just returned from Manchester where I prostituted myself in an audition to appear on a TV reality singing competition, (what a TWAT I have been), why did I endeavour to do such a thing. Well It wasn’t for the fame believe me, I have thought long and hard about fame and my prognosis is this; when you become famous you by default end up hanging around with other famous people, and I suppose that the crop of famous people is smaller than that of those in the normal world, thusly it can be compared to going to Wait Watchers or some other similar club and ending up with a bunch of people that you don’t like really you know. Yeah, you just have to get along with them because it’s the simplest thing to do given the situation that you find yourself in, agreeing with the shit that comes out of the mouth of the fat cunt next to you who lost two pounds in as many weeks (whether that is an achievement in the weight-loss world, I do not know); at any road you have to defer yourself from your own trueness and concur with the insignificances of others detritus filled conversation. It isn’t the fact that you are superior to these beings, it’s just that you think differently and that you cannot throw down the shackles of society that bind you together to just break free and talk about and do what you want and comport how you want; because if you did this you would be considered slightly nuts – and so you conform, as much as it bores you it’s what you do.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">After five hours interrupted sleep in my damp dank car, that smells like a sock that was brought to the laundrette to get washed, but somehow missed the actual part of getting put in the machine with the other clothes and ended up being kicked into a corner, where it has been left to fester and no one daren’t touch it for fear of catching some new age fungicidal flesh eating disease. I awoke slightly hung over from the bottle of Strong bow cider that I had procured and consumed to set me off; proceeded to make my way to the audition. I asked the parking attendant how much it was to park the car in the park all day, £3.50 he replied and so I gave him £20. His set up was pretty good inside his cabin, TV, sofa, a kettle and much other stuff that would make a human feel comforted. “Pretty good set-up this one” I commented trying to come across as a city wise chappy (excuse the word chappy it makes me feel like Jamie Oliver when I say words like this). “Aye it’s all right” he retorted but added, “it gets boring though”, “I know, mate I’ve done it myself” I replied. “Paper” I said to which he replied “you what”? I tried again “paper” to which he replied again “you what”? So I ventured another go with the same line of approach, but this time I doubted whether he understood my accent and so I shouted it “paper” “you what”, evidently he did not understand <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>the intonation in my voice, thusly I phrased it so “ do you have a newspaper”? “No I’m going to get one later”, I quickly added “aye, when I used to do it I read the paper from front to back, even the adverts”. He agreed with me and gave me my change, I asked him directions to the hotel where we were doing the audition- he set me on my way.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Outside the audition there was a small queue, I joined the end of it, they were enthusiastic youths, the types that went to acting school and were flamboyant in the way they moved and talked (they can’t switch it off), it must be a terrible affliction to not be able to switch off your acting skills and constantly have to flaunt them, to innocent people who are forced to listen to you talking really loudly and enthusiastically about fuck all, it’s akin to some kind of tourettes syndrome or any of the syndromes where you can’t help them. I am not egocentric by far (as far as I’m aware), but these kinds of people make me feel edgy, aggressive and superior all at the same time. At any road this woman saddles in beside me, she had spotted that I was making role ups, and she wanted the “lone” of a cigarette paper, “how are you going to loan it” I replied, “yeah I know” she said. She was an older lady and she came from Devon, “where the custard is nice I said” but I don’t think she understood how shit my joke was, it was one of them that are so shit they are funny; she asked me what I was going to sing I said “nobody knows you when you’re down and out” “oh I love that one, if I was in the same group as you I’d sing the harmonies”, to her I was being nice but inside my head I don’t think I really liked her, she talked incessantly and was nervous, there was no grit in anything she said, it was just pure shit flowing at breakneck speed, apparently she had lived in Manchester for 10 years but drove home to Devon every couple of months – the drive took 5 hours; and she was going to sing a song that her mother always asked her to sing (what the fuck)? I really did not request this information from her at all and was wondering why I was on the receiving end, plus she had started rubbing off on me, I had started to waffle as well. I briefly had a fantasy of ending up back at her gaff for some sex, but the urge to consume some coffee became so strong in me that I had to respond to it. “I’m going to grab a coffee” I blurted out and then asked, “do you want anything” “no I’m O.K.”. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“O.K. then can you hold my place in the queue then”.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Off I went glad to see the back off whatsherface for a while; down the road to ask one of them men that sells newspapers in the street where to get some coffee, he pointed me in the direction of MC Donald’s and added that it might not be open due to the fact that it was 7:30 am; I told him that I would not hold him accountable if it was not. “What I do is bring a flask” he offered up these pearls of wisdom with the greatest of ease, and a slight air that wisdom fell on the side of the older folk who came from a generation that understood things like flasks, I assumed he thought I came from the Facebook I-pod generation that had lost those all so valuable skills. He came closer to me after saying this ( he must have been as lonely as I was), now I had to answer him telling him that I had slept in the car last night and therefore even if I had packed a flask it would have been cold by now. I bade him farewell feeling non the richer for our exchange and non the poorer. Mc Donald’s Mc donald’s Mc Donald’s, just as I was walking towards it I spotted a Costa coffee café on the<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>other side of the road, it was a big one but just as soulless and cold as all the others, but at least the coffee was going to be the only redeeming feature.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I enquired how many shots of coffee does the flat, tall, grande, doppio have in it. These places can’t just say big, small or medium coffee, no they have to give them names that people in this country can’t pronounce to make them sound better you know. So anyway the spotty lad at the counter gives me my coffee, I walk over to the couches by the window whilst vigilantly looking to locate the toilet at the same time only to find that all the sofas were occupied anyway. Down stairs! I noticed that there was a down stairs and ventured down there, there was sure to be a toilet there, and sure enough there was. After placing down my coffee I strode over to the toilet and could see on my way there that it had one of those locks that had numbers and letters on it. I tried the door but was denied, up the stairs I flew to have a word with spotty about it, “eh the toilets locked, what’s the code for it” I asked hurriedly. He was in the process of making a flat white mocca chocca with wings when I disturbed him, he gazed at me through the steam that the machine was making and searched his memory for the code, “it’s ehrm.. ehrm”, blinking heck I really had to go and he is fumbling around inside his head for the code, I would hold him entirely responsible if I was to soil myself there and then. “Ehrm its 72169Y” I repeated it back to him loudly and quickly, and proceeded to make that hurried run (the one that can’t be mimicked, and can only be utilised through the process of actually needing to go).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Finally I reached the door punching in 72169Y, well low and behold it didn’t work, I said to myself “maybe you aren’t pushing the buttons hard enough” and this time I proceeded to aggressively stab each digit with my fingers precisely, just whilst I was doing this though another thought process crossed my mind; what about old people, they too have to use these mechanisms so it can’t be a matter of forcing the buttons aggressively. Anyhow the aggressive tact did not work, and then another thought struck me, maybe in his Mancunian accent ‘spot face’ was trying to or did say 7169Y, and so I tried it all in a fluster the soft approach and the aggressive one, and low and behold it didn’t work. Up the stairs I go all contorted and spasmodic “hey mate it doesn’t work you know I tried it and it doesn’t work, what was it then 72169Y?” I asked belligerently, no he replied it was “7169Y”, “I tried that as well you know, ah I’ll try it again O.K”. Jerkily I made my way down stairs but in a rather foul mood at present, muttering to myself- “I just want to go for a shit, not feel like some secret agent in a spy movie, and if this precaution is to stop drug addicts shooting up then it’s not worth the bother of us normal folks who nearly have to shit their pants whilst simultaneously cracking the code on the toilet door”. Low and behold the code did not work it was definitely wrong, spot face was in for a rollicking this time. “It’s wrong you know” I think the veins in my neck were bulging at this point, at this conjuncture the foreign girl who worked there interjected and thrust her hand up pointing at the corner uttering “you can use this one round the corner, is always open”, “thanks”, ‘spot face’ you are a fucking dick.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">After my expedition had come to an end I winded back up in the queue for the audition again, I felt sad, I felt like I had become one of those pricks on telly who just do anything for their moment of fame, selling a sole for a flutter of fame, glamour, singing the same old shit songs that only appear on TV talent shows like “You Are The Wind Beneath My Wings” or “You Raise Me Up”, or some other garbage that fits the bill. Later on appearing in Iceland advertisements or maybe O.K magazine, at least if I were a prostitute I would be getting some money, but this is more akin to selling the lining of the jacket of your sole; evidently ending up slightly colder after the process. I was doing it for the money that was the sole reason for me doing it, all the rest was a thing that must be endured for partaking in the process, kind of like chlorine in the swimming pool. At any road there I was with my guitar stuck in the queue shuffling along intermittently, making role up after role up, sipping my water and sucking on a voice lozenge (taking it all rather seriously). Well I just like singing, I always have I suppose, ever since I can remember, in fact I sing all the time in my own company-for my own company. Due to the fact that I am a social maverick and that I like to distribute my time between lots of people and not be bogged down by the comfort of having the same social beings to keep me company eternally, in other words I am a bit of a loner and so I sing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">33 years old, it’s a last chance saloon affair, at least that’s what I figured on, get rich or die trying, or just get rich and not die trying and buy a nice house and live out the rest of my days comfortably, working on side projects like ‘The Silent Hoover’ or ‘The Eternal Motion Engine’ you know shit like that to keep you busy, the kind of things that rich folks take up because they have nothing else to do. So here I am 33 doing something I vowed never to do in my life, becoming the person that I sneered at, I might as well bleat like a pathetic lamb, who is caught in the brambles whilst his mam looks on helplessly; “bleat” “bleat” “bleat”, “mam” “mam” “mam” please help me. “Money money money it’s so funny it’s a rich man’s world” I don’t like to quote Abba randomly at any given moment but I would like to rephrase these words and point out that just to be comparatively rich would do me, and that comparison is a juxtaposition of me at present (nearly always destitute) and me at some point in the future when I am not always nearly destitute. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Wishes do not have to be big, I have a friend named Pat Kyle and he is fifty years old and a recovering alcoholic, he’s clean. Pat writes his own songs and they are really good you know, he’s got one called Baby Go Home and it’s a hit in my opinion and I told him so, and that is on some authority because I listen to a lot of music. Pat made a recording at someone’s studio for free, the recording is awful, but anyway Pat sold 50 copies of his C.D and he is chuffed with it; over the moon he is. I just think it’s nice that he hasn’t set a bar so high that he can’t be satisfied. I on the other hand am eternally searching for something that I can’t and won’t get (never satisfied) stuck in some sort of purgatory in between pipe dreams and schemes. It’s all I’ve got though, some people are dreamers, they can’t help it, it’s like playing the lottery, it’s the thought of winning-that’s the only thing that keeps you going; Opium for the poor-or so they say.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Finally we get in, I find this sort of thing so excruciating, being nice being cordial-being a social butterfly, small talk shit talk small talk shit talk. I mean I don’t mind small talk-because you gotta make it, but small talk mixed with nothingness capped <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>with a helping of over niceness is like sprouts that have had the living day lights boiled out of them on a Christmas day; grey, colourless and tasteless. Wanker wanker wanker, “what’s that” “yes I came from Wales”, “how about yourself” “oh just around the corner, handy” wanker wanker wanker. I am tense morose almost, clammy sweaty hands, irritable on the inside but cohesive on the outside. I change my stance and the eternal internal argument turns on myself, I declare that I am no better than those around me and that in the stark cold and sobering light of day as I so convivially put it to myself that “I’m a wanker”, the rest of them are not redeemed though they still will take their wankerlyness to the grave with them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Anyway the moment comes and they call us through in droves of ten at a time, our names are called and we have to stand in line accordingly. Off we pop into the room were the producer talent scout types inform us of the procedure, “the standards are high” they say and “if you fail this time, keep on trying”. I am in the centre of the line and the singing starts to my left. Out they walk one by one, full of uber confidence, they all sing modern generic shit pop songs, the ones where they try to emulate a sole voice (it is like being raped listening to this garbage) as Bob Dylan once said “it’s greasy kids’ stuff”. There was one guy who did have a good voice, he sang just before me. It was my turn and I was nervous and unsure what song to sing- I stepped up and I sang ‘No Body Knows You When You’re Down And Out’, I thought I sang it pretty well, at least it’s a song that means something and has some actual content; and besides since splitting up with my ex and having to leave our dwelling and our children it’s been my theme tune, I have sung it everywhere I go. After I went on a little dumpy girl stepped forward to sing, oh my God it was fucking weird man, she sang one of those show tunes I think it might be called “somewhere”, I know I am a bastard but I couldn’t stop the smirk appearing on my face, I tried contorting my cheeks upwards and stretching them out with tension, but the smirk kept coming; I stole a glance at the judges to see what they were doing and when I did, I noticed that they were in fact sombre and were looking directly at me. It kept on coming though, and it was a miracle that I did not erupt into a fit of laughter; from here on in I had to concentrate on stopping the smirk and the laughter appearing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">We had to wait outside whilst the judges deliberated, at this point everybody enthused about what the show would be like, I stood on the side lines. The door finally opened and they let us back in. After a short moment the judges announced that three were staying, the boy who sang well was one of them so that was O.K and the other two were just the show pony girls who were all substance and no matter. Well what a blow-rejected off the talent show and there was me thinking that I would walk it. At any road I congratulated the boy with the good voice and told him that I thought he had the best voice out of all of them, he coldly said thanks as if he didn’t need the affirmation as if God had appeared in an apparition the previous evening telling him that his singing would change the world (I thought he’d previously done that to Bonno from U2), but anyway I have made a mental note not to congratulate someone on their talent ever again!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Back down the road then bleary eyed and depressed I go, at least when Robert Johnson sold his sole at the cross roads he got some guitar skills in return, I have slagged it for nought! There is the title of my next song- Slagging it For nought.</span></div>
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Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-7428746271908932112017-05-23T06:48:00.000-07:002018-03-22T15:32:39.328-07:00Gwynedd County Counclil<span style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">I have been to the council and talked to the guy there for 2 hour's, basically he didn't care and told me that people from London can come here and park because it is a public highway, I'm not quite sure if the reverse applies to people from Wales going down to London. At any road it's obvious that it's a problem because even the receptionist in the council informed me that lots of people from Llanberis complain. Previously I have complained to the council who (conveniently g</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; display: inline; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">et an office in Colwyn Bay to subcontract for them and do their dirty work) and they're reply was "yes we know that parking is a problem in LLanberis," yet they still went ahead and fined me for it (what the heck is the sense in that). Race day is coming up and the local parking officer's will be in a fit of frenzy issuing tickets out to every car that is illegally parked (because there is no space for them), I think this is a really good move to promote tourism in the area. North wales has the highest car usage in the U.K and add to the mix the fact that Snowden is the busiest mountain in the world then it only adds to the frustration of locals not being able to park in they're own vicinity. I went around with a petition the other day and one of the first doors I knocked on was far back from the main road up by Kevin the Cllr's house (she had just received her a dose of Chemotherapy), and she told me that it was a problem for her to have to park a massive distance away from her house and walk back. It's bedlam out there. We should not be penalised for something we're not culpable for. What do you think? Please comment and share if you agree/disagree. Thanks. Here's the link for the website go and like it if you like (this affects us all and is happening nationally)https://www.facebook.com/LLanberis-Residents-Against-Parking-Fines-for-Locals-437106226649653/</span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; display: inline; font-family: "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">And here's a link to a song I made about it! https://soundcloud.com/serf-school/coucil-rage</span>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-51675483034446387322013-04-19T13:25:00.000-07:002013-04-20T10:51:01.418-07:00Anarchism<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">How can I justify anything that I say without the
mere justification of just wanting to say it? And by this very premise I cannot
stand by my words as sentiments of wholeheartedness, more can I give in to
their </span><span style="line-height: 18px;">dispersion's</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> as elements of discontent. To what effect do my words
resound? Do they serve then just to act as the beat of my drum to which only I
must march? Affected by all that has passed and filled with dread of what’s to
come I cringe in my vanity of wanting to change a thing! The ‘hue and cry’
before they ‘sling me up’, “he did it” they shall cry, “he said it” they shall
cry. What was the crime then? Was it one that had entered into this very world
with my person, one that was so vaguely planted as a seed within my coloured
dreams, a tantalizing glance of the “</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">don’t
be silly will you!”</i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> And a sickly shot of the ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">what the hell are you going on about</i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">?’ Far away from ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">the din of the machine that is perpetually
thrusting’ </i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">just as it has always done, filled with a driving motion that cuts
through the still of the night and clings on to the eddies of wind that blow
the smoke from the end of my fag, away with any resolutions to change. Change
is a word of the past when the ‘din of the machine that is perpetually
thrusting’ takes over once again. A ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">how’s
a bit of that then’</i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> to off-balance the ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">din’</i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">
by way of means a recompense that was given to me by the attraction and
wonderment that went with ‘</span></span><b style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;"><i>that neon sign’</i></b><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> that pointed me over
there. And so from that funfair, sharp stimulating noises, bellowed across the
dewy trodden pathway, bellowed resoundingly, bellowed that laugh, that
excitement, that ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">quick before its gone
merriment’ </i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">belligerence, love, spite
‘in spite of it all’ the lardy ‘tucked in’ ‘war painted’ (</span></span><b style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;"><i>she’s</i>)</b><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> that are clinging
on to the ‘smoke filled’ ‘leather handed’ ‘make the world go round’ (</span></span><b style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;"><i>he’s)</i></b><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">.
‘Twas not them though, no, for they were not the instillers of discontent, they
were the darting brown in a stream, the ‘crayoned drawing of a child’
magnetised to the cold white metal of the master’s ‘food keep-freshener’. Twas
the ‘lads on the gate’ them that brimmed with ‘the ways of the world’. “I’ll
stop you here and just say to you, if it’s a good time you’re looking for then </span><span style="line-height: 18px;">you've</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> come to the right place” kind of attitude. ‘Quick but thick’ and with
the gaudiness of ‘thick-sett moronic nothingness’ but all at once full of it,
full of the world, and shouting to try and be overheard because of the ‘din of
the machine that is perpetually thrusting just as it has always done.’ It is
not too much for them though, it just unfortunately aids them in shouting over
each other to try and be heard! “Take my money then lads” they quickly fold it
into their dirty back pockets that are stained from the ‘machine’ wipe their
hands on their comrades, and gesticulate to draw my eyes towards the </span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">‘commemorate the jokes for the sake of
jokes’ </i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">moment that just passed, “What do you want to abstract from me you
pathetic miner?” was the thought but</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;"> </i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">from
my corner I did not ‘let out’ the ‘counter-joke featherweight with the glass
jaw’, for it seemed like the vegan in the carnivore’s party, and it was because
of this abstention humility was lost,
just ‘a child’s helium filled balloon’ skyward bound and heart sunken, a sad
dot on the horizon. I’m just at the gates though and all the fun seems to be
‘booming past me’ if I opened my mouth wide enough I might be able to ingest it.
The funfair has </span><span style="line-height: 18px;">leveled</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> all the personalities that used to give me a friendly
hello and even those that I know, who know of my existence but refuse to acknowledge it
with any familiarity are lost in the evocative sound. Everyone is competing to
have fun, they try hard, and the sharp dressers can be seen over the noise,
those ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">of the cloth that is not dapper</i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;">’
have to shout enthusiastically and 'vein-poppingly' over the ‘din of the you
know what’, because their clothes do not speak volumes. Some hold on to claims
of knowing how the ‘</span></span><i style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 115%;">machine works’</i><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> but
mostly no one cares in their ‘gaze of wonderment’ that half looks like a
startled </span><span style="line-height: 18px;">wood-pigeons</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> who possesses those ‘skittish eyes in front of a farmers
smoking gun’, lest lust become an ugly matter then, that that is unsaid, just
uttered what thoughts were thinking! The funfair has lost its fun-part by now;
It’s more of an unfunfair now! One that can’t be comprehended, I look at the
people and they’re still incessantly
laughing, disembodied sounds that sound like, well, well, well like ‘they never
had an owner!’ Mimicry at the behest of some kind of wizardry! A throw back
even, to a distant memory, but still they churn it out. I find no place in the
lonely crowd, no! The crowd is not lonely though, for they find solace in the </span></span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">pretense</span></span></span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="line-height: 115%;"> of perpetual laughter, you know, to drown out the ‘the din of the
machine that does the, you know what all the bleeding time!’ I could chip into
the chirpiness and ‘chirp up!’ Resolutely there seems no viable attribution
that I can cling on to; “How’s it going then, this is just what we need isn’t
it? Isn’t it? Isn’t it ‘ad </span><span style="line-height: 18px;">nausea</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> ’ I
had repeated the phrasing until I got the pitch ‘just right’, in between I
swayed as a blurred world added to my confusion. My mouth dry from chattering
that clanged empty sound, aching with the laughter that ensued. For one brief
moment though the machine struggled, it seemed like it was on the brink of running out of fuel, the engine almost
idling, but not quite, It was then and suddenly that I could hear my thoughts
again! I just told them what I had realised all at once, and shoutedly blasted
out “I just want what you all want” and with this dispersal of my thoughts came
the onslaught! “What do you mean boy?” I tried to tell them, “I know a place
where we could be happy, without us pretending to laugh all the time because of
the noise of the machine, but it’s up to you!” They regarded me for a short
while and then they all begged “please tell us where it is?” I was just about
to tell them that they </span><span style="line-height: 18px;">didn't</span></span><span style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-size: large;"> have to go far to find it
when……………………………………………………………………………………… ”The ‘lads on the gate’ had greased the
machine to get her going again and the ‘din’ of the ‘you know what’ had drowned
me out! </span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I have smoked since I was thirteen years of age, which means
I have been smoking for 21 years! It was cool to smoke when I was a young’un,
and I used to practise my smoking technique trying to get it just so, you know.
I would adjust the positioning of my fingers trying to clasp it in a manly
style copying some of my rock n role idols or film stars; jeez I dread to think
of some of the people I used to idolise when I was growing up.<i> Picture this then a grown man in tight
skimpy cycling shorts who’s sporting a leather jacket and wearing some Doctor
Martin type boots, to boot he has a long flowing mane and to top it all off, he
has a personality that would ward off all advances from any decent minded
beings; the only saving grace of this being is a voice box that can produce
sounds akin to a witch who is doing some overtime on an ill-fitting vibrator</i>.
That was a short description of one of my former idols Mr Axle Rose god I used
to think the sun shone out of his arse-well you know what I mean, I used to
really like him, I think I would have even tried the cycling shorts look if I
knew that I wouldn’t get beat up for it, but alas Bethel village is not
equipped for this kind of rock n role behaviour. At any road smoking was cool
and it was a past time of mine when I grew up, you know the learning how to
smoke and looking cool at the same time, avoiding such things as blowing smoke
into the eye whilst trying to show off in front of a girl and subsequently
ending up looking like a dickhead, this kind of uncool smoking had to be evaded
at all cost.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">“Giz a stump on that then,” everyday down to smokers corner
at school and this is what you heard the folks saying down there, if it wasn’t
the stump it was the ‘little stump’ that you begged for. If you were really
desperate you would ask someone who had the little stump for a stump of the
little stump which was aptly named ‘letters’. Well if you were taking the
letters you knew what you were in for, yes indeed all you got were the letters
at the end of the smoke Marlboro, Regal, Embassy, but usually they were the
cheapest fags going like Berkeley or Lambert & Butler that we used to buy.
The letters were to put it mildly ‘fucking disgusting,’ it was a s hot as a
volcano but with all the healthiness of a tramps armpit, all sodden with
everybody’s spittle, I mean the life had been smoked out of this thing before
it even got to you, the filter had been squashed from the previous smokers
efforts of dragging the essence out of the thing exorcizing all remnants of the
evil nicotine spirit within. We still carried on though, why I hear you ask?
Well because it was cool and it was something to do.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The first time I smoked it was with my best friend at the
time Lee, me and Lee had found a box of twenty Black Cats (rank) cigarettes.
After finding the fags we headed on home to steal a box of matches and then
headed down to our den to smoke them. Settling in with eager anticipation of
doing a deed that we weren’t supposed to be engaged in, well we proceeded in
lighting the cigarettes. One cigarette after another “watch out Lee it’s me dad,”
we hit the deck as my dad went passed with my little brothers. Panic over and
so we lit up again one after the other, Lee had gained a green colour to his
face and I’m not feeling too smart, a deathly silence falls over us as we realise
that we’re ‘fucked up’ off of the fags. “ I think I’ll head home now you know
Lee” says I “yeah me too” he replies, none of us wanting to tell the other that
we were sick from the fags. Sick may be the word to describe the feeling when
one is slightly under the weather, but this on the other hand was one of those
messages from the brain saying, “what the fuck have you done to me, shoving
evil toxins inside me, that’ll never do!” The brain was right and the body was
weak and feeble-like and withering with every passing second. “Toilet, toilet
oh where for art though my beautiful toilet,” it’s coming pretty sharpish now,
restrained heave after restrained heave and all of a sudden whoosh out it pops,
the contents of my gut that is, or in other words spew! Hurtling out of me at
breakneck speed with no let up at all, ‘twas revenge of the putrid fowl
smelling kind laced with jewel like carrot entities winking at me with mirth in
their eyes.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Fag after fag after fag after fag after fag habitually
nowadays, that’s the routine anyhow, nervous well it’s time for a fag then, on
the toilet it’s time for a fag then, in the car it’s time for a fag then, after
climbing a big hill it’s time for a fag then, cup of tea time for fag then,
cough well it’s time for a fag then, eaten crisps it’s time for a fag then,
bored –well you get the picture there’s so many different occasions to break em
out and everyone a celebration of, um something? The long and short of it is
that I know I’m driving another nail into my coffin every time I start a puffin
and a coughing, but I know that don’t I? So how come I have got to stare at a
man with rotten teeth on the packet? O yeah it’s because the government wants
to warn me of the dangers of smoking by sticking a picture of some thick cunt that
smoked but coincidentally didn’t brush his teeth either. So I have to bare
these shitty warnings that I know already, and if the government really wanted
to stop us smoking, then why are they still selling them? Any answers? Oh yeah
that’s it isn’t it, they make money off of them, lots and lots of money and if
they didn’t have cigarettes to raise taxes on then they would have to raise
them elsewhere; causing Joe public to grunt as if passing stones. I have to
stare at this health warning every time you know, even though I am aware of the
dangers. I am also aware of the dangers of sitting down on the couch for too
long and rotting my brain away-where’s the health warning on the sofa then? And
where’s the health warning on the T.V or MacDonald’s for that matter. By the
year 2020 half of the U.K is going to be obese and not only will they be
clogging up their arteries but they also will be clogging up the NHS beds at
this point in time I can only hope that I do not double default and become an
obese smoker. Pardon my French but <i>je m'appelle
Matthew</i>, no really, what the fuck is going on?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The other day I was stood outside the University entrance
and a jobsworth janitor or some fucking thing shouts over to me telling me I’ve
got to be five meters away from the building because it’s the law. I ask him to
tell me precisely how far five meters is, to which he replies and tells me to
take five steps, and so I deliberately took five smallish steps. Well the
upshot of it all was that I landed on the bottom step of the stairs, and so I
shouted across to him “is here alright mate?” He told me that I had to get off
the bottom step and then I would be complying with the five meter rule. O.K so
that is what I did but I turned my head around and blew the smoke back into the
five meter zone, contaminating all the fresh air that presided within it, I
shouted over to him “what are you gonna do about that then jobsworth?”
Jobsworth pushed off without a reply one nil for the smokers, I would have
laughed in his face, if it wasn’t for the fear of setting-off my ‘death rattle’
cough.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Back to the present dilemma that nearly drove me off the
edge the other day, I poppes into the supermarket to buy some fags right, and
guess what? They had all been locked up, the display cabinet had now morphed
into a lock-up for the fags, I couldn’t see them, and I instantly felt the urge
for a cigarette draining away from my body, because you know that is what makes
me want to have a cigarette, not the fact that I am physically addicted to nicotine,
no no no it’s seeing them that does it for me. Yes seeing them instantly sets
me off; “<i>go and lock up the fatty foods
then dickheads and the booze while you’re at it.”</i> That’s what you think isn’t
it, well I do at any road, and so, I stole over to the woman and say, “what’s
with the fags, why you got them locked up? To this the woman starts going on
about the government and blah di blah. I say to her “you know sometimes I like
to see which fags I’d like to choose,” wham, out comes a great big list of all
the fags you can buy there she hands it to me inattentively and starts to regard
me with discontent. And so I just stare at the list I don’t really give a fuck
about the list of fags by now and I was only trying to illustrate a point, and
so I throw down the list and queue up behind some fat bird who obviously works
there because she’s clad in the Morrisons attire. The fat bird must have been
finishing her shift because she was buying some fags, I don’t know what fags
she bought but the woman behind the counter opened ub the sliding door of the ‘cabinet
of disgrace’ and gave her a box of twenty. “I saw them” I said to the lady
behind the counter, “I just saw the fags inside, and I can see the fags now,
why don’t you put them in a bag?” I said victoriously. At this point in time
fat bird turns around grasping her name badge and indicates for me to look at
it, “look” she says “I work here so don’t start” I think to myself that she
doesn’t have to indicate that she’s working here by pointing at the badge as if
it gives her some kind of authority, and also I can see that she works there
because she’s dressed up in the Morrison’s greengrocers attire, unless she’s
mentally retarded and likes to pretend that she works there. “It’s just bloody
stupid isn’t it?” I say in a slightly peevish manner, all I wanted was for
someone to agree and say that it was stupid, that’s all. Fat bird chirps up
again saying “what’s stupid is the Welsh assembly making us pay five pence for
bags,” to which I reply “no that’s better than having the countryside littered!”
It was at this point that I decided to give up on the fat bird because she
obviously didn’t go for long walks in the countryside otherwise she wouldn’t be
al ‘Jabba The Hut-like,’ and secondly she is probably the type that jettisons
all her sweetie wrappers from out the window of the car, on second thoughts I
take that back, she probably eats the sweetie’s wrapper and all. I repeat myself this time to the woman behind
the counter “It’s just bloody stupid isn’t it?” To which she replies “that’s
just the way it is, there’s no point complaining you can’t do anything about
it!” I just think to myself that all I wanted was confirmation at least that it
is stupid and that it is not me just being a ‘pointless dickhead.’ Now I am the
stupid one for even thinking to complain, in retrospect though, what I should
have said to her was. “Picture this, it’s a dark Tuesday night and you have
just finished your shift in your second job, and so you get home about 10 ‘o
clock and have your supper and go to bed. Precisely 10 minutes after you have
gone to sleep you feel a sharp pain right up your arse, as you awake you find
it’s just ‘Dave the Fucker’ stabbing 7 kinds of shit out of you. Dave is a
civil servant from the DFPA which is an acronym for ‘The Department for Fucking
the Public up the Arse,’ so what do you do? Do you turn over and try to ignore
it and get some shuteye? Or do you say this is wrong!”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">By the way I have it on good authority (Arwel from the
guitar shop), that there is an old guy in New York that is a 105 or so and has
been smoking since he was 9 or so, and he still manages to walk around. They
say that no news is good news, well good news is good news and you never get to
hear it, so why don’t they put this New Yorkers face on the side of a cigarette
packet with the strapline ‘smokers usually die younger, but not all the time!.’
I know it’s wrong and, all I am saying is that at least we should be accommodated
the luxury of having a wind-proof shelter when we do have to brave the weather
to get our fix. That is all.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-22433143882958378132012-05-02T15:28:00.000-07:002012-05-02T15:28:17.153-07:00Half way right but then wrong again.<br />
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<span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;">Could I
awake from a slumber and collude with some sort of distant relative? One that I
once held like a brother; the same one that now seems so vague in my mind.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It unrests me to think of it,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>because its only like the cigarette gunk
buried in my clothes ready to unleash its fastidious smell and remind me of the
last nights. Ones I tried to forget! Out there though is where the timid flower
clings on, almost whimpering like a dog as it braces itself in the wind; still
so beautiful if not only in its symbolism, yet it seems too weak to be picked,
and far more poignant would be the gesture of letting it flap hither and tither
in the wet wind. Tis but a ‘come on’ for me though, I cannot let it be there,
rasping against the cold stones that serve only for the purpose of eroding it.
As the corner of my eye fixes on it, life does all of a sudden, suddenly stir!
I pick it, romantically beholding it. “Oh!” “Cradle thee I shall!” It is now,
and as I fully suspected, not so symbolic. It is an ambassador of nothing, but reminiscent
of everything all at once. I beheld that flower, nursing it quickly to its
shrivelled death. A flash in the sky was the flower, a red crumpled up dart it
served in as much purpose, and now soggily lies in the wet rainbow filled pool,
it soaks, I gloat. Have I not served a purpose today? Was there a memory that I
could not tame? Or was it just an unpicked flower?<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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</h2>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-8154720437010753282011-12-15T13:47:00.000-08:002011-12-30T14:03:00.686-08:00A Bloody Good Poking!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I remember it as clear as day
now. We were walking home from primary school; me and a certain Neil White and
I don’t know how the conversation began but it fell into a ‘my dad’s better than your dad thing’. I do
remember this though it was him that started it. Me and Neil had a few running’s
here and there and he knew not to piss me off or I would just get wild and jump
on his back and smash his head on the floor. I was wild when I was younger and
would often fly into fits of rage and couldn’t stop myself from going mental so
to speak.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">Anyway Neil told me that his
dad would knock my dad out (I don’t know why) but there you go, that is what he
told me. I said “no way, my dad would give your dad a hiding”. Neil came back
with his snappy reply, “na my dad would give your dad a backbreaker!” For those
of you who never watched WWF that’s the World Wrestling Foundation and not the
World Wildlife Foundation which I find are easily confused. The backbreaker is
a move from WWF and not WWF O.K.! So I say that he could try but my father’s stronger
and that he would outmanoeuvre his dad and reverse the move on him. It was
getting intense now and there was more and more malice lacing every word that
was slung.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">Neil had reached his limit or
what seemed to be the limit of his imagination and to be honest with you I don’t
know why he was defending his father because it wasn’t his real dad; no he was
defending a man which we’d nicknamed Dafydd Cont which when translated would mean
David the Cunt. He was mean to them and used to belt them; but I suppose he had
to stick up for him, but then again, he did not have to initiate the mudslinging.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">So apparently Dafydd Cont had
a gun because he was a farmer and he was going to shoot my dad no problems. I
told him that I’d phone the cops and that they would swarm his house. This it
seems would not stop Dafydd Cont because he would boldly blast his way out of
the situation smoking the policeman as he parted them out of his way, akin to Moses
and his miracle at the red sea.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">My father had a work shop in
our house where he used to build the Irish pipes (Uilleann Pipes) in the
evenings. In this workshop was a machine called a Lathe which is used to turn
wood from blocks into conical form and also it is used to drill them out. So I
tell Neil that my dad would grab his dad before he could get to his gun and commence
in putting his body on the lathe; setting it spinning at a faster and faster
speed, until eventually his head would come off and all his guts would come
flying out of the stump of his neck where his head used to be. This did the
trick and he was quiet the rest of the way home!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">The ensuing day was just a
day like any other I got dressed and shuffled my way to school as slow as I
could, and when I got there Mrs Barlow the lollypop lady would give me her
ritual boot up the arse saying to me “come on slow worm”. When I got to the
classroom it was evident that the news had come from the top down through the
chain of command that the headmaster wanted to see me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I approached his door with
the same air of deflation that always filled me when I had to go there. Knock
knock! Come in said Mr Jones. Well how could I describe Mr Jones let me begin
by saying he was small in stature and he wore pink pinstriped shirts. He wore
gold rings and had tight grey trousers; the type that was specially made for
teachers and could only be found in mail order catalogues with an inbuilt come
in the back pocket of course! Mr Jones loved golf and he would drink from a mug
that had a picture of a woman clad in a bikini, and on it there was some golf
related gag about a birdie. Mr Jones was a ladies man and always reeked of some
pungent aftershave. Mr Jones commanded respect and he gave me a row in front of
the assembly one day because I had not saluted him as he made his way into the
school, and the reasoning behind this was that I was busy playing and I did not
see the twat coming and besides the wind was blowing the other way so I couldn’t
smell him coming either. Mr Jones wore hushpuppies. Mr Jones had an affair with
Mrs Pat. Mr Jones’s hair was always slicked back the same way. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I pushed the door open and
walked in, “come here!” he bellowed and so I promptly walked over and in front
of his desk. Well Mr Jones leapt out of his chair with much enthusiasm and
vitality and came bounding towards me as quick as a flash. Mr Jones’s weapon of
choice was his chubby little digit (index) extended firmly which he used to
poke you in the chest as he gave you a ticking off. Well this time though he
started off a little differently; improvising with a grab of the shirt pulling
me to my tiptoes, and then letting me fall back down to my feet before he
commenced his prodding. “Ginsberg” he bellowed, “now”(poke) “tell” (poke) “me” (poke)
“the” (poke) “truth” (poke) “and” (poke) “don’t” (poke) “give” (poke) “me” (poke)
“no” (poke) cock and bull story (poke) (poke) (poke) (poke)! By the time he had
finished with me I was pinned against the wall, well I didn’t know why I was
here like most of the times I was here; I just didn’t know. “I don’t know what
you are talking about Sir,” I told him plain and simple because it was the
truth. “Oh you know Ginsberg.” “No, no I don’t Sir”. “Your father killing Neil
White’s father”, “oh that Sir I didn’t start it, it was him!” I wanted to go on
but he told me to go and stand outside his office as usual.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I stood there for an age I
watched my friends go out to play and I watched them come back in again; the
dinner lady’s passed and smiled at me I grinned my toothless grin back at them.
Mrs Roberts and Mrs Pat (Mrs Pat was the one having the affair with Mr Jones)
stood there discussing me as if I wasn’t there at all saying this that and the
other; I hadn’t an idea of what the hell they were going on about; except that
I knew it was a ploy to make me feel worse. Eventually Mrs Roberts turned
square at me and said one of those sayings that I never understood, you know
one of those riddles that they always fire at you when you are a kid. “Look at him;
it’s as if butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth!” I thought for a slight moment to
myself that butter does melt in my mouth, yes it does melt in my mouth so that
makes me normal, there’s no problem then, its decided! I had decided to tell
them the good news and so I chirped back at her defiantly “butter does melt in
my mouth!” I gazed at her after saying this and could see that a wry smile was beginning
to creep across her face and so instead of letting it show; she and Mrs Pat
briskly turned and trotted themselves off. Hmm I had a sneaky suspicion that
they liked bad little boys.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">Eventually I was relieved of
my exhibitory position from outside the head masters office and was allowed to
go and have dinner. Ah the sweet taste of freedom Mr Jones’s is a twat and he
doesn’t know that me and Richard Peter’s stole crisps, drink, and overcharged our
classmates when we were running his shop (we pocketed about 40 pence), and we
watched him count the takings in front of us and didn’t bat an eyelid.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">Anyway so I get reprimanded
all because Neil White does not have an imagination and has the cheek to go and
tell on me to his mother who in turn tells the head master. Punished for having
an imagination and I thought schooling was supposed to reward us for having
talents like these.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">So we were on our way out of
the school one day me and my older brother Raphael and all of his friends. As we
exited the building we started spying into the headmaster’s office through a
little gap in the blinds; low and behold Mr Jones was snogging Mrs Pat. All the
lads were drawing in their breaths and making exclamatory noises. “Www yyy”
they went as they were greeted by the scene. “What’s the matter?” I said as I
jostled inn all elbows because I was much smaller than them because they were
older. It was true Mr Jones and Mrs Pat were going at it hammer and tongs, or
more to the point they were hammering each other’s tongues! The lads told me
that they were having an affair, “what’s that?” I asked them. I was informed
that if you are married to someone then you can’t go snogging someone else. “Oh”
was my reply not really understanding the principle of the whole discussion.
When me and Raph got home we informed our mam of what we had witnessed at the
headmasters office; well her eyes lit up as we filled her in and she asked us
if we were sure. “Of course we are everyone saw it”. I could see by her
reaction that this was a bad thing, and there was that sanctimonious shithawk
ploughing into me, and all the while he had been having an AFFAIR! Wait until my
fingers grow Mr Jones and you are dead meat!</span><br />
<span style="font-size: 19px;">></span></div>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-17406643010756757162011-12-11T06:44:00.001-08:002011-12-11T06:50:46.520-08:00The Death of my Beloved Green Slug!<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">My car died today! ‘The old
slug’; that’s what I used to call her and every time I went in her I used to
say a little prayer. I used to talk to her trying to maintain our relationship;
patting the dashboard exclaiming that we are good friends and that she should
keep her part of the deal up by just clocking up the miles.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">When I used to take her on
expeditions which wasn’t often we would pass by people that had broken down
standing by their vehicles awaiting recovery I used to exclaim aloud “please
don’t let that be me”. My hands are a little shaky now; all I’ve consumed today
are 2 cups of coffee a tin of beans and a child’s portion of chips. My ex-girlfriend
told me the other day that I play the poor man always and that I’m trying to
draw attention to my woes constantly. I am not! I am down a dark shitty hole at
the moment which is my own fault and my hands ache from trying to claw my way
up. If only I had not been an obsessive gambler than maybe I would be sitting in
front of the fireplace rolling on the floor with the kids. (Was I playing the
poor man just now)?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">My money will come through
tomorrow morning (hardship fund) from the University; £150 that should keep me
going for a while! And so for the time being I am just going to sit here and
write in the warmth of Pete’s Eats café. I only want to charge my laptop up
really so I can watch a film in bed later on; oh the excitement of my life
nearly makes me spontaneously combust sometimes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">I feel like the character
from Crime and Punishment (Raskolnikov) more and more these days, and sometimes
I even contemplate buying a toy gun from Bargains Galore in Caernarfon to try
and do a ‘stick-up’ somewhere, I lie in bed envisioning the plan every strategy
goes through my head; even that will have to be put off now for I am carless.
Doing a stick-up and making a getaway on foot is too foolish even for me,
although on the other hand it’s so foolish it might work. First I would have to
check out the bus timetable to see what time they are going and secondly I
would have to be able to afford the bus; hang on I could pay for that with the
money from the stick-up. Alright I’ve got it! I’ll hire one of those limousines
that ladies hire when they are going out on their hen-nights, at least then I
could make my getaway in style maybe getting carried away and throwing some of
the money through the window as I pass by the bus stops. “Oh driver could you
stop at Bargain Booze please, I need to stock up on cigars and alcohol PLEASE,
and anything you like!”</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Anyway back to the present
and I have just been phoned by some publishing company. I got quite excited at
first and then I realised it was because I had been on some website last
evening and they had my details. At first the website seemed very promising as
they always are you know saying things like “we take the hard work out of it”
and all the other garb that’s affiliated with these sites. Finally after
watching their little video and signing up to their website I arrived on the
final page and there it was; basic package £760 pounds and then the prices
continued upwards. Well someone from the company (a lady American, sickly)
phoned me up, and to be honest with you my heart skipped a beat until it dawned
on me why she was phoning. I instantly informed her that I had no money and she
kept pecking at me with her persistent sales techniques. I felt like telling
her about the current situation that I find myself in, but ended up just
telling her that she was barking up the wrong tree if she wanted money. She
kept on, for gods sakes! If only she could smell me over the phone then she
would see that this is the odour of a person that does not have access to
money. At any road I got rid of her and I did not do it in an abrupt manner
because I have done that kind of job before and so I can empathise with her
(well a little).</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">And so I was heading for Rhyl
in the car because I was going to sell the last thing of value that I had. The
car had been acting kind of funny for a little while now anyway; <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>the heaters had conked out and it was doing
the kangaroo motion when I started it up and so I had to rev the fuck out of it
until it got going. Well today on the motorway a funny knocking noise decided
to make its début just as we were nearing our destination, the power went as we
were going up a hill and smoke plumed from out of the bonnet. “Oh fuckinell”, I
rev her up pushing my foot down as far as it would go hoping that this would
remedy the problem. No such luck, she was dying on me there and then. I was it
seems a little naïve to think that I could fix the problem by merely slamming
my foot down on the accelerator. Luckily we were headed down a bit of an
incline and I managed to get her into some kind of layby before she spluttered
to a sudden abrupt ending. I suspected that this was the last of her.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">I had to phone my mother<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>because she had donated the car to me because
in these area’s you essentially need a car, that is if you do not want to
squander the major part of your day waiting in bus stops for buses. Besides
this I needed it to take the kids here and there. So she got on the blower and
gave me a number to ring. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">“Was the smoke black or
white”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“erm white I think”, I answer.
“Do you know what’s the matter with it?” Goes the guy on the other end of the
phone as I answer, “Well it’s broken”. I did not proclaim to be a mechanic and
the chances are that if I were a mechanic then my car would probably be running
O.K and then I wouldn’t need to phone to get road side assistance. It’s like
when you phone 999 for emergency assistance and the person asks on the other
end of the phone if you are the injured patient, and then they ask if you are
unconscious, and you think to yourself if I’m the injured patient and I am
unconscious then how the hell can I be phoning you? This is the way things have
gone though, and you can’t rage against it because there’s nothing there to
rage against, just a system; some other person whose fault it isn’t on the
other end of the line, or some forms. Dead end roads that lead you to the ever
familiar feeling, that you are just shit, at the bottom of a ladder.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">I stand by the side of the
car as the smoke bellows out! It’s cold and wintery and I am starved! Luckily I
had left a tin of beans in the car with the foresight that times might get
tougher. Well that thought had come home to roost and so I grab the tin of
beans and snap off the lid with the ring-pull and proceed to slurp down the
beans with much vigour; so much so that I actually inhale one of them and it
makes me gag. I cough it back up and then swallow it again. A train passes by
and I think to myself what a sorry sight I must look to the onlookers.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">I went to the boot of the car
because I remembered I had some of my work clothes in there, a pair of
waterproof trousers and a lumber jacket. I put them on over what I was wearing
already which was a long grey trench coat, jeans and a sheepskin hat and scarf.
Well I must of looked nuts with the trench <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>coat protruding out and flaring from
underneath the lumber jacket. Last night I had watched a film called Mongol it
was about Genghis Khan’s child hood and his rise to power. Well it inspired me
and in it there were scenes of him walking for miles through the snow over the
mountains and falling through ice into lakes and all the rest of it. I don’t
watch many films to be honest with you so when I do they tend to have a lasting
effect on me; you know like when you watched Goonies when you were a kid and
instantly wanted to go out with your friends for some similar adventure or
similarly thinking your some kind of karate expert after watching ‘Enter the
Dragon’. Well anyway I stood there by the side of the road exclaiming to myself
“come on Matt, this shit’s nothing”, pretending that I had some of Genghis Khan’s
spirit in me to fend off the cold and the shitty situation in general. As I
said it, it worked, and then after a short while it wore off and I started to
shiver and curse the wind and rain, it seems that Genghis’s spirit was not
strong enough, I’ll have to find a new one! <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">Finally the road side
recovery man turns up and assess the damage “your head-gasket’s gone mate”! “Oh
fuckinell, that’s bad”. It is bad you know, I have heard people talk of this
happening and it is always in a bad light. “How much do you think it will cost
to fix it?” “Well you won’t get much change from £500 mate”! I think that means
it will cost about £500 to fix or there abouts. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">After a brief discussion with
my mother it is decided that scrapping the car is the best thing for it, and so
I relay the instructions to the recovery man that we are to head for the scrap
yard in Bangor. I noticed that he had a photo of his children in the cab of the
van (three girls), and so I started a discourse on kids, he obliged and filled
me in on his situation telling me of his daughter and her study’s in child care
and this that and the other. I thought that he had the ideal set up being a
constant father with a steady job and his life filled up with the comforts that
all these things bring. It turns out that he had a daughter from a previous
marriage, after he told me this he went a little quiet and withdrawn. In a
strange way this made me feel better about myself.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">We got to the scrap yard and
weighed the car in. Not long after this I asked the woman in reception if I
could get a bag off her to put all my possessions in. She told me that the car
would have to be weighed-inn again and so I went back and shoved all the stuff that
I wanted in. I couldn’t be arsed at this point so I just got the stuff that was
most important. I told the lads that they could keep the rest, rigger boots,
some golf clubs and bits and bobs; you know just shit that I had horded and
thought would become useful one day; most of it was from my days of working on
the skips. I got £110 for the car.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt;">My mam turned up and drove me
home and as I was leaving the car she asked me for the money- well it was only
fair she did give me the car, but I thought she might let me keep it (kick in
the balls, but justly so). And so I have just asked the guy in the café at what
time they close and he told me “now”, and so I’ll have to go back to the
refrigerated dark house and try to find a DVD to watch to set me off to sleep!
So “goodbye cruel world.” Well at least until tomorrow!...........</span></div>
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<span><span style="background-color: #6aa84f;"><span style="background-color: white;"></span></span></span>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-65393674181198866362011-12-01T06:27:00.001-08:002011-12-01T07:17:35.753-08:00Creating a Mantra!<div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">
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<span style="font-size: large;">I grew up in a house that was
awash with riches; not that I appreciated them at the time. At any road all the
exposure must of ingrained its mark on me, for when I was a pup I recall asking
my old man if he would get the Sherlock Holmes instrument for me. He pondered
on my prerequisite for a while before ascertaining a solution for my demand; I
had asked him to get me a Saxophone, (because Sherlock Holmes’s pipe looked
like one)! We never used to receive any of the things we asked for usually; no
fancy computers or any of the stuff that the other kids got, but if we asked
for something like this our old man would do his darndest to get it. Well he obliged and one day we set off for
Bangor to go and visit a man named Rustle (he was the one)! He was the one who
had a collection of saxophones besides other paraphernalia, and his house was
wonderful; it was crammed with all sorts of things like ‘fog horns’ and this
that and the other. For me it was like some treasure cove and I just stood
there in awe; I don’t know if my recollection is spot-on but I’m pretty sure
that Rustle was vested in Safari gear!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">We procured the Saxophone and
it was mine! It had an old beat up case – now I had to figure out how to play
it; I do not recall if this was instantaneous or if the urge caught me at a
later date but whatever I started to play somehow.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">When I was thirteen I
received lessons in school from some dry bitch whose (big thick yellow
moustache) name escapes me for obvious reasons now. Well I used to turn up to
her lessons freshly laced with the smell of stale cigarette smoke and play
those boring tunes that they try to teach you when you begin to play. At this
point I had been playing along to my old man’s jazz records with artists like
Cannonball Adderley, Rahssan Roland Kirk (Roland Kirk) and John Coltrane. So
her attempts to get me to play ‘Oats Peas Beans and Farley Grow’ were wasted on
deaf ears, and so in the process of trying to play these ‘turn-offs’ I used to
stray off the script improvising what I thought was a passion filled jazz type
improve. Her face was an encapsulation of disdain (sad bitch), and so I used to
stick to the script.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">One day the old bag music
teacher turned up no more, and in her place was an old gent whose name escapes
me as well now, but not because I just forget the shit people’s names; no on
the contrary I just forget things sometimes, because I’m slightly fallible.
Well this guy was cool and he played along with you on the saxophone. His
saxophone was a nice one and when he played spit bubbles appeared around the
corner of his mouth. My Saxophone had a bunch of elastic bands wrapped around
it because the spring mechanisms had broken. He told me that I reminded him of
a guy that used to play in a band with him; they had played here and there - in
places such as Butlins and the like; I respected him for this; well at least he
had been around and was not a dreary bastard like the other one! Ha!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">We had a recital to give in
the school assembly one day and news had reached the music teacher that I was
good on the saxophone and so she decided to give me a forefront saxophone
driven recital piece. The piece we were to play was ‘Abide with me’. It was a
hymn and the rest of our class were to play it on the glockenspiels whilst the
teacher accompanied us on the piano.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">We were given sufficient time
to practice it, and so I did, every day after school. I spiced it up putting
little jazz runs in here and there and playing it this way and that. I was
totally comfortable with it. Well days and weeks passed and I did not notice
that the day was upon us, until I was cutely informed by someone that tomorrow
was the day that we were to give our recital.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">No problems then; well not
for me anyhow! The headmaster gave his usual shitty speech about some current
affairs and things that were going on in relation to the school and the
mandatory religious offerings that had to be thrown in. Well finally it was our
turn to go on (yes)! We walked on from the side-wings of the stage to our
respective positions; the rest of the bunch sat at desks where their
glockenspiel’s had been placed and the music teacher sat at the piano. Me well
I was front and almost centre.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I looked out in front of me
and the assembly room never looked this way to me before and before me sat a
sea of people that I knew, the hardy lads, the sexy girls, the funny ones, the
geeks and all the in-between. She struck up the chords on the old grand piano
and everyone started up on the glockenspiels. I waited until my part kicked inn
counting the beats off, ‘O.K here I go’; eyes pierced me expectantly.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I can only describe the
following sound that ensued as follows; an evil spirit had accosted my body and
used it to express the sound of its tormented soul; funnelling it through my
bloody saxophone! “Go away evil spirit
and fuck off dry mouth”. My heart pumped like a thing that pumps a lot; O.K it
was like the thrust of a horny frog. Out
pour the hideous sounds again! It was music, yes - it was it was freestyle
jazz, but then again not even I knew that I could get this kind of sound out of
the god damned thing! On and on I go in what seemed to be an age; trying to
regain my skills, but it was no good though the laughter and tittering from my comrades
was destroying me. My heart pounded!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Wait a minute I had an idea
that would regain my prestigious status as a musician and so I stopped. At this
point everybody else did as well, a barrage of laughter kept on coming from my
comrades. I turned around and said this “can we go from the start?” The bitch
was trying not to grin, and so she put her head down and I turned to face my
comrades. At this point I think I would have preferred some jeering instead of
the raft of laughter that kept on coming.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">They struck up on the piano
and glockenspiels again. I had to hold it together but all self-reasoning had gone
and only fear; adrenalin and that evil spirit that had come to possess me
remained. This time it was worse; I mean the noises were worse; try donkeys
shitting barbed wire out continuously! That is the only description that even
comes a little close to the out of worldly shit fuck noise that kept coming.
TIME DID NOT ELAPSE ETERNALLY! Knees were being slapped and the odd tear of joy
had come to my comrades eyes helping their quests for camaraderie. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Finally oh finally as if the
day would never come; emancipation arrived and we all proceeded to make our way
off the stage. When I arrived at the
wings of the stage; the chemistry teacher was there to congratulate me on my
performance; he patted me on my back whilst he battled with the fits of
laughter that were making his body vibrate and he uttered these words, “well
done Matthew, it’s the first time that is always the hardest”. What a twat!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">For about two to three weeks
after this debacle when I strolled around the school yard I encountered the odd
bunch of comrades here and there pointing in my direction making donkey noises ”
<i>Aw</i>-EE, <i>Aw</i>-EE”. I put my head down and carried on, well that’s all
I could do; well it was the best start that I could get! At least I knew what
it was like and not what it was supposed to be like, and so:- “head down and
carry on”! I adopted this as my mantra.</span></div>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-69200118220187349412011-11-26T14:58:00.000-08:002011-11-27T09:34:25.835-08:00The Dublin adventure!<div class="MsoNormal">
I<span style="font-size: 14pt;"> had just finished a week’s work in John Murphy’s house; he had bought a house in Llanberis that had some fire damage. I ripped all the old plasterboard down and assisted the tradesmen with their duties of repairing the gaff. £200 pounds is what I got for it; and so I packed my bags and off I went. I caught the ferry over to Dublin, £200 quid, what was I thinking? I had with me one bag of clothing and my guitar and that was it, oh yeah I had a business card that was given to me by a lad from back home that had recommended me that I go to Dublin, because there was loads of work there. Well he wasn’t wrong it was the time when the Celtic Tiger was at its most ferocious; money was flooding in from the European Union, and the boom was in full bloom. There were cranes peppered across the Dublin skyline and the prospects seemed good. I recall lugging my bag and guitar around quite the timid country boy, hustle and bustle, just crossing the road was exciting. I looked for a hostel, popping into this one and that one, noticing all the hip young backpackers hanging out; full of energy and all so cool. I wanted to be amongst them, sharing this wonderful epoch that was happening, they looked as if this was the time of their lives, and me, well I just felt a little unsure. I would have to find my feet somehow though, that was for sure.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">Finally after some traipsing around and gathering information from people here and there, I ended up staying in a hostel that was just around the corner to the big bus depot. This place was massive and had lots of rooms, dormitory’s, I checked in dumped my stuff in the room and headed out round town, just for a spin like. It was dirty, grimy and busy, there were folk from all over the world there; I felt excited and lonely. I had to find ways of getting on with folks, interrupting conversations, high jacking them. I also had to thicken my skin somehow. I recall spotting some high rise office building and the top of it looked as if it had Chinese style architecture, this was my marker and what I used to navigate my way home. I liked the dirty river full of traffic cones and shopping trolley’s and god knows how many Dutch Gold lager cans.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">Of an evening I used to go out busking in the trendy area called Temple bar, when I say trendy I mean it was like a stage prop, you know it looks good but was only a temporary fixture, what I mean in saying this is that it was where all the out of town people’s used to go, because they thought that that was Dublin, well it was. It was the Dublin that had been constructed for them, bright and shiny and expensive. After I finished busking I used to hit the town for drinks, getting myself in with the gentry sometimes, and sometimes not. There is no worse feeling than ending up drunk on your own; desperation and weirdness invite themselves around for a party within your soul. The Doors tune starts going around and around in your head on a loop, “people are strange, when you’re a stranger, women seem ugly, when you are down”; you internalise things like this and somehow manage to turn yourself into a weirdo, finally consigning yourself to go home and sleep it off – all by your lonesome.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">In the hostel they had a common room, which was usually full of backpacking types, you know the types, they usually have their national flag stitched into their backpacks and they talk about how many countries “they have done”. I don’t know what they mean when they say "doing a country", it makes them sound as if they are comparing a country to a girl they have picked up in a club to take home for a casual shag, thusly just doing her, no emotional attachment just short lived and fast paced pleasure. I think they mean to say that they went to all the places that all the other backpackers went, and that they hung around with all the other backpackers, taking photos at the places they were supposed to take photo’s just to prove that they were there, but not really experiencing the country at all, just passing through seeing everything but tasting nothing. Well it was full of those types, and at the time It didn’t seem apparent to me of the stark truth that was staring me in the face, so I just did my best to get on and fit in, harvesting the appropriate information needed for me to get by.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">One evening I got back drunk and arrived back at my dormitory opened the door to a room full of sleeping people. I swayingly took off my clothes falling this way and that. When I had finally divested myself and got my bearing’s in the dark I could faintly make out my bed, it was a bottom bunk, I dove the final three feet hoping to land right in and fall to sleep straight away; no such luck though as my body entered the bed it encountered a mass akin to a brick wall which stopped me in my tracks and nearly knocked me for six. I withdrew reeling seeing stars “ umm, what the fuck”, well evidently there was a man who had the build of a Grizzly Bear sleeping in my bed, I had to skulk away quietly in fear for my life at present; I did this in the style of a zombie feeling the beds to see if there were humans inside them. “Fuck off” seems to be the standard reactionary blurt that comes from people who are fondled by some drunkard in the dark. After an age of molesting strangers in the dark, I finally found an empty bed; I got my money from out my trousers and placed it inside my pillow, it didn’t seem like there was much left. “WHAT AM I GOING TO DO” cried the internal voice, “GO TO SLEEP” retorted the other.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">The girl who worked in the reception was for want of better words a fat ginger haired boiler, well she was Canadian and every time I walked passed she got me to stop and talk to her, she liked the guitar and this and that, and she used to work in another part of Ireland in another hostel, on the coast somewhere, and during her time there they all used to blast ‘Brown Eyed Girl’ the song by Van Morrison, “oh it was the best Mattie”, she said to me, Mattie is my name by the way, just in case you were wandering. I mainly just listen to people when they talk and just try to find something relevant to say back to them, and more often than not they think they have been engaged in a conversation with a person who loves to talk, but in actual fact it’s them that do the talking- well to an extent you know.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I don’t know how long what little money I have left will hold out, still no sign of a job anywhere, even with the busking it is hard to find enough for the hostel and food and all the rest. Oh I don’t know what to do, so I carry on the same way going out busking, drinking and looking for work in the day time, but there is no luck. Finally judgment day comes I have not a penny on me, my mind races around thinking of the short term solutions; sleeping rough or whatever. And so I pack up my bag and guitar and head out the hostel, and on my way out the reception I hope that the ginger one is there- well it turns out she wasn’t so I hang out in the common room watching the box. Finally she turns up, thank fuck, so I casually walk past waiting for her to pounce on me. Quickly I aim some words at her with an air of indifference laced with despair and sadness, “right then, I’ll be seeing you”, “why where are you going” she says, It gets more embarrassing at this point, “I have run out of money so I’ll have to sleep out rough” I reply just staring at the ground stealing the odd darted glance at her. “Oh my god Mattie, you can’t do that”, I tell her I have no choice in the gravest of voices, I am really into it at this point, this in situ acting is making me believe myself; well it wasn’t a lie, but I was selling the story well. Of course she offered me a place to stay, I told her that I would cook and clean and all the rest of it. She asked me to play “Brown Eyed Girl”, “I don’t know it” I said and alternatively played “Blackbird” by the Beatles, she loved it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">It wasn’t like I had many alternatives; this was the only card I had up my sleeve, and so the gaff was alright, and I did do a bit of cooking and cleaning- at least the pressure was off for a while.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I slept on the floor and she slept in her bed. One evening she had gone out with her friends on the razz and came home at a late hour, when she arrived home all liquored up, she made advances at me. I had figured it would come sometime or other. I could feel her hand move up and down my waist and she gave me the odd prod, I just turned over and acted the best snore that I could; she was persistent though and became more animate and aggressive in her approaches. It came to a head when she gave me a sudden jolt the kind that you could not pretend to be asleep through, and so I said “what”, well she told me in a roundabout way that I had to fulfil her womanly needs or else I had to go! Jesus I was knackered, and besides I don’t really think I described how ugly she was to you, well; ginger hair, and roles of flab, acne-bad acne at that and to be quite frank she was just a weird boring social being, she was no oil painting. Well I tell a lie she was in fact quite similar to a Picasso. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I clambered on top of her and her appetite for lust was insatiable, she was ready and willing for any eventuality, which was all good and proper, but to be honest with you- I just closed my eyes and used my imagination. All I can tell you is that the sensation was warm, warm and moist. After this occasion she assumed I was her boyfriend and so she used to take me out for drinks and the like; when ambulances used to pass in the street she used to close her eyes and say a little prayer. I can recall one time being at a bar with her in broad day light and there was some music on, she started jiggling and gyrating and grabbed me closer to dance with her, ah fuck it if you’re in for a penny you’re in for a pound, and so I span her around the dance floor a few times.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">One day I lay down on her bed in the middle of the day for a little snooze, and I felt something rustling inside the pillow case, something like paper. I stuck my hand in between the pillow case to retrieve the aforementioned object, well it was a little piece of paper and on it scribbled in pencil were these words, ‘does he love me or doesn’t he’? I couldn’t imagine that she had another love on the go and thought to myself," I have got to get out of here". I slipped the paper back in the pillow case and just went to sleep.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">In the time being I had asked my mum and dad if they could send me over some money and so I awaited its arrival every day. One day I remembered that my friend had given me that business card and had told me to phone the guy up because he was Welsh and that he would give me a job straight away. I phoned up the guy and the words rang true, he gave me a job straight away, well I was to start the next week.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">The next day I popped into town to waste time and when I came back a letter had arrived from back home, it was the one I had been waiting for, the one with the money in it. Shortly after the ginger ninja arrived home she quickly informed me that the land lord had found out that I had been staying at her gaff, and that I was to pack my bags and leave; she disgruntledly informed me that she had also received her marching orders as well! Well she got her money's worth out of me any road</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">I made my way into town walking miles from the outskirts where we lived and managed to find the cheapest hostel in Dublin, it was called Chelsea and it too was located by the main bus depot. It was a flea ridden affair, and in the toilets it had graffiti in every language stating “ostelo di merda” “ostel di mierd” and so on. The toilets had a big hole in the floor, well I went ahead and asked for the cheapest room, it was down in the cellar and I shared it with two Spanish girls, they were nice but a bit intense- they shared their tobacco with me. Maybe I looked like I needed a bit of help!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt;">To be continued............................................ </span></div>Mattie Ginsberghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08166452191055656950noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2708908454112393468.post-2261274350580158242011-11-25T11:04:00.000-08:002011-11-25T11:04:09.247-08:00The Brown Carpet<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:OfficeDocumentSettings> <o:AllowPNG/> </o:OfficeDocumentSettings> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:WordDocument> <w:View>Normal</w:View> <w:Zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:TrackMoves/> <w:TrackFormatting/> <w:PunctuationKerning/> <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/> <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:DoNotPromoteQF/> <w:LidThemeOther>EN-GB</w:LidThemeOther> <w:LidThemeAsian>X-NONE</w:LidThemeAsian> <w:LidThemeComplexScript>X-NONE</w:LidThemeComplexScript> <w:Compatibility> <w:BreakWrappedTables/> <w:SnapToGridInCell/> <w:WrapTextWithPunct/> <w:UseAsianBreakRules/> <w:DontGrowAutofit/> <w:SplitPgBreakAndParaMark/> <w:EnableOpenTypeKerning/> <w:DontFlipMirrorIndents/> <w:OverrideTableStyleHps/> </w:Compatibility> <m:mathPr> <m:mathFont m:val="Cambria Math"/> <m:brkBin m:val="before"/> <m:brkBinSub m:val="--"/> <m:smallFrac m:val="off"/> <m:dispDef/> <m:lMargin m:val="0"/> <m:rMargin m:val="0"/> <m:defJc m:val="centerGroup"/> <m:wrapIndent m:val="1440"/> <m:intLim m:val="subSup"/> <m:naryLim m:val="undOvr"/> </m:mathPr></w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState="false" DefUnhideWhenUsed="true"
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<div class="MsoNormal">The brown carpet, it’s quite repulsive, and every stain recounts a story of the people that were here before us, I can imagine that there have been a few piss-ups here in the past judging by the stains and the associated stench that the brown carpet kicks up intermittently, I should know I have been waking up on it for three months now. I have a little makeshift pillow that comprises of a rugby sweater stuffed with a few jumpers, and a sleeping bag that decides to open itself as soon as you get in; and of course in the night time when I’m asleep the bastard thing usually opens itself right up leaving me there like some flabby banana that someone has half peeled and discarded. The flat is, shit it’s the pits man, I try to stay in and do a bit of tinkering about on the guitar but It just gets me down being there, the sofa smells of fish, the toilet never flushes properly always full of foul water. I know there are kids in other climes that are suffering and that it is all comparative but I can’t think of that when I walk into the corridor where there is a hole in the roof where the shower of the Lithuanian people that live upstairs leaks; well there are some kind of fungal mushrooms growing from there: - they are quite pretty! Sometimes when I walk past them I comment on them If Sebastian is in the flat “fuckin hell Seb, their coming along good now you know” “wo” he goes as I reply “the mushrooms yea, their prize winning you know” he laughs and peppers me back with the some of our daily banter. Well you have to laugh it off somehow don’t you?</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Sebastian and me met about four years ago when we were working in Traffic Management; Traffic Management-well you’d think that we were going to work in suits to push pens around analysing and adjusting data on computer screens, alas no such luck that is if you consider that kind of thing lucky. No Traffic Management in all its glory is a souped-up name for well- you know, those guys who stand there with a stop and go sign, well one of them!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We communicated through means of walkie talkies me at the top of the hill and Sebastian at the bottom. Well I’ll tell you one thing, Sebastian can talk, he can talk about the most mundane technical thing and drag it out for ages, things like the seal on his car door, or putting up shower curtains. He is a machine operator by trade and he is desperate to get on them again, but for the time being he is stuck here with me, and so we while away the time on the walkie talkies, he fills me in on his life history and on his current situation. Living with a Welsh girl called Bethan who has two kids (not by him though), he is kind of obsessive over her but her kids do his head in because he is not allowed to tell them off, because she won’t let him, ( I sometimes wonder If Seb would wish they were dead). We wear the batteries out on the walkie talkies “is it o.k to send them up Matt” “what was the last car then” “I don’t know it was blue or something”, “yea alright fuck it then, send them”. Luckily nobody got hurt it was just that the oncoming cars met each other in the middle and everybody on site had to help in the process of moving cones out the way and backing up cars; what the hell, everybody slagged us for talking on the walkie talkies too much. One day after standing there for about six hours straight, me and Sebastian said let’s just go for our dinner; owing to the fact that no one had come to relieve us of our post, so off we went, up the road to the canteen. One of the head honcho’s was there, (he was not our usual boss), and on our arrival he grunted to Sebastian, “who said you could relieve yourselves”, “well its wo we do if no one comes yeah” he said, head honcho flew off the handle at Seb he went through all the gears until he landed on the final one, which was self- importance, well he revved it up in this one tearing into to Seb. Seb just took it, just because he is Polish and an agency worker; fuck this fat slime ball I says to myself; and so I get riled up and start shouting back at the fat sad man. He is scared and backs off barking orders at the lower ranking workers to “get on the blower and find two other agency workers for the next tomorrow”. “Shove it up you’re chuffer then” says I to him, head honcho went and hid in his office-fat prick. Some of the other lads told us to go and beg for our job back, Seb wanted to go, “ah fuck that Seb, I’m not eating shit, I’d rather go down the road and try and find another job” he said “yeah but wo we gonna do” “fuck it come on lets go”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">We are in the same boat now me and Seb he has finished with Bethan and me I’ve left Siwan the ex and our kids (well I say left but it was more like I was exiled), and she definitely won’t have me back, not for all the tea in China. So me and Seb sit there in the pox hole flat and chat, he Bangs on about his ex “and I sent her a text yeah” “yeah” I go but not really listening, my own head is full of shit and besides he keeps repeating the same story’s. “Well I sent hy a tex an she didn tex me back ye” “yeah” I go begging him to go faster with the story and not to drag it out, but he doesn’t hear the tone of anxiety lacing my voice, and so he goes on; that she is hanging around with some gypo girl who is an ex pole dancer; and that she has gone out four weekends in a row now, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>and where is she getting the money; she hangs around with slags and she is doing cocaine all the time and this weekend she is going to go to Blackpool or somewhere. I keep going Yeah, yeah yeah and throw him the odd lifeline to try and rescue him from his despair, offering sound advice like,” well fuck it Seb even if she’s shagging just let her be, the only thing you can do is carry on with your life the best you can”, (I want to shake the hell out of him). Yeah yeah yeah by now I think it is so obvious that every shred of empathy has left my body, I am non- responsive, but Seb is relentless, grind grind grind. Right that’s it, I am going to tell him in no uncertain terms what to do, I flash my head around quickly and look him square in the face; this catches him unawares and then I say to him “Seb shut the fuck up”, I carry on gazing at him to see if this body blow has worked. He was slightly confused for a while and I could see his cognitive process, he discarded it, it didn’t affect him at all, no he just kept right on “yeah bu the thing is yeah, wo she did yeah”. I have never had an outer body experience but I could figure that it would be a simile to this affair, he’s numbed me. I can’t leave straight away though, and so I wait until he pauses and dart off through the door for a pint, just to escape. I can tell Seb to fuck off and he doesn’t care he just carries right on, that’s a hell of a quality to have, he was genuinely unfazed, I wish I was like that-I just use my humour to gloss over everything. Well I wonder if I’ll get lucky tonight-probably not on a Tuesday night, well what the dickens you never know.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Off into a pub called the Black Buoy, it’s the oldest pub in Caernarfon town and it is a pretty one, incidentally the street that I’m walking on is called the 4&6 street, it is named thusly because when the sailors used to dock in the port and come into town, they would be granted the deal of paying 4&6 in old money; and for this they would get a bed for the evening, a pint of Gin, and the piece de resistance………..drum roll please! Yes they got one of Caernarfon’s finest ‘ladies of the night’, darn it, unfortunately the deal isn’t going anymore.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Into the pub I go and sit up on one of the bar stools; I like sitting up at the bar, my Irish friend Andy Connolly converted me to a barside sitter. The young lad asks what I would like “Guinness please” goes up my cry. Staff come and go and there is a funk in the air, usually they cook fish here and my sense of smell could not gauge the odour properly, ‘tis a strange mixture. I don’t recall the barman’s name so for ease of conversation let’s say his name was Garry. Garry and I make idle chit chat, then in walks this Irish guy, he was from the south not far from Cork, by the coast somewhere but the exact location escapes me, and is of no real relevance at any road. I went out for a smoke with him, he had working man’s hands and a colourful flat hat on, he bordered on being dry to the point that he almost didn’t laugh at things externally, (well he said he had only had three hours sleep), which might have had something to do with it and not the fact that my jokes were worn out. He had an interesting job though, he had come over from Ireland to pick up a carriage, I didn’t get it at first but it turns out it was a horse drawn carriage, one of those old fashioned ones, he picks them up and restores them and sells them on for thousands.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Curtis an old friend/acquaintance arrives behind the bar, I’m really not sure how to categorise him, I think he is my friend, after all who isn’t? Curtis is quite high up in the pub now, he did a business course in Liverpool and came back home and landed this job. The smell keeps coming now and again wafts of slightly offensive odours-but they keep hanging there. I sit there watching the staff go about their everyday banter and take it all in, pitching in every now and again with a quip. Then I saw him do it, there was nobody else there and Garry went to the back where the glass cleaning machine was, he did some funny little move that was Michael Jacksonesque lifting one foot off its heal ever so slightly and with one arm respectively turned to his side open palmed, He had a look of relief on his face, and then it suddenly dawned on me as I was consumed by a cloud of noxious gas – that it was him all along! He had been the creator of the foul stench that had loomed in the air all night long. “So it was you all along then, you dirty swine” I said, he crumpled with the hilarity of the situation. </div><div class="MsoNormal">In walks Charles, an old Australian bloke, he had come to see the Welsh guards the following day putting on a display or some shit like that. He was of Welsh decent and so he had come back to his routes, I asked him his name and he said “I am Charles like the prince of your country, except I’m a decent bloke”, I wasn’t sure what to think of Charles, because I have met like 15 or 16 consecutive Australians and most of them pissed me off, loud and abrupt and stereotypical. Well it turns out Charles didn’t add to my statistics of Australian wankers, firstly because he bought me a pint, and secondly cause it turned out that he was a decent real person. Well I would like to say that the wine flowed and the good times rolled, but that would be a lie- the beer was poured and we drank it and got merry, me Curtis, Garry and Charles. Charles was a real charmer with the ladies and fearless at that too, straight in he went grabbing their hands, going in close and introducing himself “I am Charles like the prince of your country, except I’m a decent bloke”, I think he was getting drunk, he hadn’t had many though.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Curtis and Gary challenged me and Charles to a game of darts, Charles as it turns out had never held a dart in his life nor had he ever attempted to throw one at that matter. I coached him telling him to relax and aim and visualise where he wanted the dart to go. Charles had a funny stance when throwing the darts akin to some warrior wielding a spear; we tittered as we exchanged looks when he was throwing. When he got it right and it went in Charles exploded with joy and shook hands with me, we were bonding ever deeper every minuet, and we were winning, they played week- in week- out, but we were thrashing them; all we needed was the bulls eye to finish. I popped to the toilet and when I came back he had done it, he had hit the bull-he was over the moon; you had to admire his enthusiasm for such a small feat but this was the best thing for him-getting in with the locals and winning at a game he had never played before.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Down the hatch the drinks go and through the door we trundle off to the next pub The Ship & Castle.</div><div class="MsoNormal">The Ship & Castle was the only pub that had a lock inn on a week night, it was busy and people kept coming and going, “must be the local hotspot” exclaimed Charles, “yep” I replied-Garry bought us all a shot of whisky, “come on Charles, down the hatch then”, I egg him on; and so he swallows it down in one swig, winces and goes “bloody hell mate”. Another game of darts is on the cards with the same set up as earlier, by now though Charles is inebriated, he closes one eye as he takes his throws, sometimes hitting the wall and sometimes getting it perfect. I buy drinks for everyone and an extra one for me, some old lady who is an accountant is counting the scores for us, marking them with chalk on the chalk board; she eggs on Charlie.</div><div class="MsoNormal">One of the lads asks what Charlie’s name is in his presence, (the smell is back, Garry’s a dirty bastard) “I am Charles like the prince of your country, except I’m a decent bloke”, “bloody hell Charles you’ve said that all night, could you knock it off please” I say to him, the lads laugh and so does he, it was becoming his mantra. We are ahead again and everyone is egging Charlie on, in-between he manages to charm every woman in the pub.</div><div class="MsoNormal">I duck outside for a fag feeling more drunk as the minuets pass, and when I came back in old Charlie had done It again he had won the game for us; I suspect that he might be some kind of hustler (the smell hits us again), Garry is basking in the glory of his farts, he’s so proud.</div><div class="MsoNormal">Charles bids us farewell and it was a short affair, he had to get up to see the Welsh guards the next day, what a charmer and a gent he was. So off we go to Curtis’s gaff with carry outs galore; Garry’s mashed up by now all over the place one step forward, two to the left, leaning back, in view, out of view hanging on to railings. There are some other stragglers that join us on route also. Garry and Curtis are acquainted with them. When we got to Curtis’s gaff it started off alright but I don’t recall at what time of the night it was, but a certain drink tipped me over the edge; I don’t know why I didn’t go earlier I sat there probably looking like some person who could neither understand English or speak it. I eventually had enough when Curtis was speaking directly at me but I couldn’t compute, “am am gnna go you know Cyrt” “why” he said, “am am focd ye no” I slurred. So off I went back home again feeling, well I don’t know really, indifferent but fucked, happy but sad, because once again I had failed in my questing to secure some female company, even if I could get a girl to breathe on me, it would be something! Anyway enough fantasising for me I have had my skin full, I am rendered useless and I know my place, the only place fit for me the floor of the flat sprawled across the repulsive brown carpet.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
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